That Stings

I will let everyone in on my struggle. To spend time, on my own, with Jesus. I know that this is a common struggle because I have sweet friends who keep me accountable. We ask each other if we have had our quiet time today...and most days that is a struggle for me.

Today, my quiet time kicked me in the rear, and it stings.

Along with the book of the Bible that I am trying to read through, I try to read from Proverbs. If you did not know, there is a Proverb for everyday of the month, so look at the date and read the Proverb. God is pretty cool in giving us easy ways to read His word, especially if we are trying to establish, or in my case, re-establish getting into His word daily.

Today, I read Proverbs 19. There is so much wisdom in this little chapter, however, what stuck out to me today was this: 

Proverbs 19:13b-14

 a quarrelsome wife is as annoying as constant dripping.

Fathers can give their sons an inheritance of houses and wealth,

    but only the Lord can give an understanding wife.

*Face Palm

You see, I was a quarrelsome wife this morning. To be honest, more than I care to admit. 

I jumped all over my amazing husband for no reason. 

When I tell you my husband is amazing, I mean it. 

God blessed me with this man. He is a servant leader. 

He loves me and all of my craziness for some reason. 

He chose me, despite all of my flaws. 

We were very good friends for over a year before we started dating, 

so he was FULLY aware of my flaws before hand, and yet he still chose me. 

This gift of a man that God has given me is so incredibly undeserved.

And here I am, the annoying drip.

OUCH!!!

I am thankful for the rebuke that God has given me this morning. 

The Bible tells that, 

"All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, 

correcting and training in righteousness." *2 Timothy 3:16. 

I am thankful that my Father has not given up on me, and that he shows me when I need to be rebuked. 

He lovingly shows me in His word, that I have messed up! 

My prayer for myself today is to be the understanding wife. 

I all too often am far from understanding. 

I am short tempered or have an attitude that is not gracious. 

I write this today to tell you how I struggle. 

My struggle is not yours, and yours is not mine. 

But the word of God is the same. He is the same. 

He rebukes and loves us the same. 

I pray you find the joy in the rebuke. 

No matter how hard to follow through with, or how painful of a rebuke it can be. 

I know I write in a light hearted manner, but this rebuke hurts me deep. 

It needs to so that I can make a real change. A change that I cannot make on my own. 

I need to rely on God to continue to bring this to my mind, 

so I can pray and ask my husband to forgive me, and for God to forgive me. 

Not that I won't ever be the drippy faucet again, 

but that I recognize that quarrelsome heart in me quicker each time. 

My prayer is the same for you today. 

That as you learn and grow in faith, those rebukes will come faster 

and you will make the changes necessary.

Thank you for reading and sharing!